I wasn't really social last year, and I know I don't have many folks on my buddy list, but I have a few! (Lindsay, I'm lookin' at you!!) And none of you are active! Is nobody doing NaNo this year, besides me?

The Random (yet) Obligatory Update, #12

If you read my last journal entry a couple of days ago, you'll know that I just finished writing a screenplay.

Pause for happy-dance intermission.
WOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOHO
And now we return.

The script is in its first draft, and there's still a lot of tweaking I need to do before I can shop it around, but I still need to start thinking, NOW, about what I want to do with it. As I see it, I can go one of two routes--both of which, as always, have their own pros and cons.

So, I can go looking for an agent, who will go looking for a studio to buy my script. This could take a while, and chances are I'll lose control of my brain-baby at a very early stage in the game. The movie they make might not even be the movie I wrote! But, however long it takes, I'll eventually make FISTLOADS of cash.

Or...I can talk to an acquaintance of mine. He's young, he's fresh, he's looking to make exactly the kind of film I wrote. We know each other, we like each other, and chances are, however small, I'll have a hand in the creative process the whole way through. He can find a producer, and probably have the whole production wrapped within a year. However, there's a strong likelihood that no one will have the money to buy my screenplay outright, and I'll have to settle for percentage points. And what happens when our film hits the festival circuit and gets drowned out by the next Hard Candy or Good Will Hunting (which, in turn, got drowned out by Forrest Gump--hah!)? I'll have made a movie, sure, but I still won't even be able to buy myself a pack of smokes.

deviantART, what should I do?

'Cause I just wrote a fucking screenplay!!! !!! !!! !!! !!! !!! !!!

Yeah, you heard me right. What do you think about THAT!! HA!

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna make a quick run to the liquor store and steal a bottle of champagne ('cause, y'know, I'm still unemployed, and really really broke). And then it's PARTY PARTY PARTY, BABY!!!!

xoxo

P.S. No, seriously, does anyone know an agent? I have no idea where to take my script. ^_^;;

Yeah, it's been a while, I know. I also know that there are a lot more people waiting on me than I find it comfortable to think about, which is making this whole update thing really, really hard for me.

Why do I always have to be so melodramatic?

I don't know, but I have an announcement...

...what is it, you ask? Well...

...I'm gonna have to put What I Should Have Said on the back burner for a while. I don't know what it is, but I'm just not feeling it anymore; in fact, I haven't for a few chapters now, and I know that it's been showing in my writing, so I think that I need to take a breather for a bit. Hannah, Holly, Marie and the gang deserve better from me than I'm giving them--and so do all of you, who've been sticking with them over this past, torturous year and its thrilling, sardonic fifty-thousand words.

Don't worry, though, I'm not going to stop writing...not at all. In fact, at least at this very moment, I feel a greater urge to be writing than I have in at least a couple of months--just not to be writing WISHS. I don't know what I'm going to tear into yet; probably Touched or Star of Eden, since I'll be able to stretch out more into different ideas, run in different directions. I mean, when you strip it bare, My Amanda may have different emotions, concepts, a different soul, even, but it's still just teen angst, and I think, for now, I've had my fill of it, and I need something...not richer, but just...different. I'm in a rut, and I need to find my way out of it.

So, I'm gonna brainstorm a little, throw some ideas around in my head, write out a couple new concept chapters, and see where it takes me. I'll be sure to "drop TROU" again when I decide what I'm gonna start working on now, so's you guys won't be totally out of the loop, and I'll definitely, absolutely, totally, enthusiastically post another update for you guys when I do decide to go back and try to finish WISHS. And don't worry, I will, even if it kills me. I just need some time to clear my head.

Sadly enough, the tenth (and EPIC) installment of The Random (yet somehow) Obligatory Update is more of an update on my general activity in life, and not my work. But, I'll still start with my work,

because,

today's post to What I Should Have Said brought the word count up to 45 000. Woohoo!

But that's all about that.

I really just wanted to tell you all that I was finally going to tackle the deviations that are waiting for me. A small part of me needs some time to mull over my own project before I get back to it, and is calling for a distraction; but a much larger part of me is just plain feeling guilty. I'm getting so much positive feedback from so many of you, and I'm not giving anything back. I've got 441 deviations in my inbox right now, and that doesn't count all the ones I'm sure I've purged in the past (I have a bad habit of doing that under certain circumstances).

I'm going to be admiring all of your visual art and poetry first, followed by short stories. I'm going to make a hard-copy list of all the novels I need to start on or finish (Julie, Lindsay, Jessica, Diana, Joshua, and Snowy (since I don't know your real name), you're all on this list), so that I can delete the chapters out of my inbox (they have a tendency to pile up) and just read the novels out of your respective galleries. It'll be a tough choice, which to tackle first, but I'll eventually get through them all, don't worry,

And ... I guess that's all. I just wanted to let you folks know that I was finally going to start paying you back for all of your generosity of thought and criticism. You guys rock, and you deserve to be recognized for it,